..A World of Nonsense..

i am pissed off by the 3 of you. you guys sucks. 2 guys 1 girl. 1 couple and the other attached. let's give them a name. firstly, the couple. guy name C, girl name X. the another guy name Y. let's start with Y. you really sucks. stop ordering people when you your own self doesn't make it. and you didn't really do very well too. so what you are older. i don't care. stop acting big yeah? you just cannot make it. now the couple. you 2 sucks too. i hate biased people. so what the C is higher rank? does it mean X can do whatever she wants? wtf. so what X is C's girlfriend? does it means you can giveX a easier job? so what she work full shift? does it means she can go early when they are still others working full shift too? please bang wall and die. i am not being mean here. but i am stating the fact. i hate to work with the 3 of you. you guys make me puke.

Jiamin stepped on your garbage at 12:59 午前

TRIAL - W-inds.

何度だって起き上がるよ

倒れても痛くても

No more tears

最後流す涙は

悔しいときじゃない

うれしいとき

夢を追うことは時おり

現実さと真逆

才能なんて不確かで

すぐに立証できない

誰も傷つけずに

街を出たわけじゃない

でも決めてた　保障などない

明日にかけてゆくと

走り出した夢へとただ

僕だけのためじゃない

現実は思うより

甘くはなくつらいけど

今日の僕は昨日よりも

少しだけ強いはず

No more tears

強がりはいつだって

僕の背中そっと

後押しする

力出し切れなかったり

誰かと比べたり

自信なんてあやふやで

ずっ保てはしない

何度あきらめかけ

荷物まとめただろう

でも言い訳できなかったよ

自分自身にだけは

どんな今日もどんなかけも

明日の夢描いてく

受け入れて　乗り越えて

意味はきっと見つかるさ

雨は上がり　夜は明ける

この空は果てしない

No more fears

限界はいつだって

苦の心が築く

弱さだから

いつの日にか　こんな日々を

愛しく思うかなあ

胸張って僕の恋

伝えられるそれくらい

何度だって起き上がるよ

倒れても倒れても

No more tears

最後流す涙は

悔しいときじゃない

うれしいとき

this song is sing by w-inds. it is one of their new single 'TRIAL'. it's nice. and another song of theirs is KAZAUTA. it's nice too. currently love this two songs to core. find it very meaningful. KAZAUTA is the japanese translation of the english song 'All or nothing'. it's really, really nice. on the day that the particular you left, candy play the english version of this song. on that day when i heard it, tears rolling down. i really like this song. whenever this song is play, i remembers you. although we only have a very short memory, it's okay. better than nothing at all. thanks for everything. =)

alright, the english translation of the song "TRIAL".

I always get up again

no matter if i fall, no matter if it hurts

no more tears

and the tears I let fall in the end

won't be because I'm sad

but because I'm happy

sometimes chasing my dreams

goes completely opposite to reality

my talents may start to seem unreliable

and soon I can't even manifest them

I didn't leave my hometown

so I wouldn't hurt anybody

but now that I've decided, there are no guarantees

I've got to stake everything on tomorrow

I started running to my dream

and it wasn't just for me

reality isn't sweet

it's more painful than you think

but today I ought to be at least

a little bit stronger than yesterday

no more tears

since my shows of courage

are always quietly behind me

pushing me forward

being unable to muster my strength

or being compared to somebody else

they might make me lose confidence

but I definitely won't keep on like that

how many times have I given up

and packed my bags?

but I wasn't able to make up an excuse

... at least, not to myself

no matter how bad today is, no matter how bad the past was

I'm painting my dreams for tomorrow

accepting them, surmounting them

surely my reason can be found

the rain lifts, the day breaks

this sky is endless

no more fears

because my limits are always

weaknesses

made up by a distressing heart

someday, will I be able to look back on these days

and think of them nostalgically

to the point that I could puff up my chest

and confess my love to you?

because I'll always get up again

no matter how badly I fall

no more tears

for the tears I let fall in the end

won't be because I'm sad

but because I'm happy

had some motivation after hearing this song and knowing the lyrics. really encourages me. guess whenever i am sad, i must listen to more this kind of motivating songs arh. lolx. alright, end my entry now. meeting weili and jasmine later for dinner. and back to my presentation. jya ne. =)

Jiamin stepped on your garbage at 1:48 午後

wah!!! today is so unusual for me. reason why? i wake up at 6.30am and reaches woodlands at around 7.55am while my lesson starts at 8.30am. was really unusual for me. guess i have sleep too much yesterday. -_-''' another thing. was really unusual for me to come for the lesson today. today i am having science. just imagine today i wake up early and i am having science! oh gosh. i really find it hard to imagine it. science lesson is so damn boring. the faci is just standing infront of me. explaining last week quiz questions. and damn it. today problem was about heart. wtf. my greatest fear. damn it. should have come yesterday and not coming for today lesson. really regret it. argh`

don't really feel like seeing the both of them tomorrow. i am not hating them. i just dislike them. it's too biased. i just don't like being with the two of them. really can't stand it. totally can't stand it. only some of you might know what really happen. the thought of it makes me pissed off. grr. hopefully i won't see either one of them tomorrow. let's just pray hard.

Jiamin stepped on your garbage at 8:49 午前

argh!!! sad, sad. no refund for people who does not wish to continue their studies. wtf!!! argh! and must pay full amount for the laptop which the pupils have brought. grr. i got no money... sad. =( haiz. guess i got to bear with it. sad. =(

brought new bag!! puma bag. =D 50 bucks. woohoo` thinks it is quite cheap. anyway, really happy. haha. XD so, now i only left with clothings, shoes. good. maybe going shopping tomorrow. must see the timing first. sad. tomorrow science. hard it to the core. today i didn't went to school due to tireness. sleep for around 18 hours. wah! so, sad to say i got to go school tomorrow. ben skipping science lesson for many times. =( hooray!! 1 week + will be holidays!! although it is a short one but never mind. better than nothing.

feel like eating drumlets and pizza!!! *hungry* maybe this is due to my pms which makes me feel like eating lots and lots of food! XD

Jiamin stepped on your garbage at 12:22 午前

argh` stupid hot weather. i hate recent weather to the core. i want rainy days! provided when i reach my destination. hehe. =) have two tests this week. just some understanding tests. but to say the truth, i didn't studied for it and i didn't really know how to do it. hee. but anyway, hopefully i just get a simple pass grade and that's enough.

i don't really want to care how you guys wanted to rate me. maybe you guys just doesn't know me well. stop assuming you know me very well when you guys only know me for only around 1 month. whatever you guys wants to report or what, please go ahead. i don't care.

been really tired recently. working everyday. what to do? i have no money. the only thing is to work. other than rob a bank or what. nahz. i won't do it. that's for sure. wah!! guo hong have psp. damn. white colour some more. i want to have it! heard from him that his friend wanted sell it for 220 bucks. cheap! i am going to buy it next month. hopefully his friend still has it. =)

stupid silvercab. never ever going to take it. i really hate it. how can a drunk driver drive a cab? plus he doesn't know the way. i only have 1 word to say him. but not going to say here. but i hope the cab company can do something about it. please stop letting your driver drinks alcohol. it's really dangerous to drive especially there is passengers on it. if you want, just go die yourself instead of bringing others along. i really hate this kind of inresponsible driver. please bang wall.

schooling is killing me. i feel so terrible. especially i have to wake up early in the morning and travel from jurong to woodlands. stop telling me it's near. i think singapore poly nearer. stop asking me why i don't go sp. please go and ask the school itself or the government. plus the lessons is sooo boring. grr.. i really want to pass this year asap. i am going to go crazy. i don't see anything good about this school. the only good thing is that we can online. haiz. i just pray hard this nightmare can be over soon.

Jiamin stepped on your garbage at 12:44 午前